"i cant hide the way i'm feeling inside

the pain is killing me cuz, I wanna let the world know

its you i'm loving"

good song... oh, I love college. the long days are still enjoyable. I miss my family and friends back home of course. especially home cooked meals. people keep saying how allendale is in the middle of nowhere and there's nothing to do. but wherever you go, you're going to be bored at one point or another. I personally like it here. the sky is so so clear and beautiful. every night, the stars have been so relaxing to stare at. "everything went from wrong to right. and the stars came out and filled up the sky..." i'm listening to kylie minogue :) BUT the crazy thing is, I feel like a big city kind of girl. and this is quite the opposite. It's weird. but I just love it.

my english assignment is to write on anything I want but with a purpose. and im thinking about writing the difference between westsiders and eastsiders lol. ah well. there's work to be done, but I don't mind. being here is so great. except I lost my ID today somewhere. i looked everywhere! it really really sucks. so I have a temp ID now. and what sucls more is that I was fine with my old picture and I wanted to keep it (my first and last college ID type of thing).

anyway, things are definitely different. and it may seem like i'm dwelling on the same things, but can I help myself? I miss my boyfriend. I know we're on a break, called out by myself. but it's natural. not to mention other feelings i've been feeling. sometimes, I wish I knew how everything was going to turn out. I love him still and I always will.

my scattered brain... so getting to know people to hang out with is definitely cool. I like how the engineering boys can recognize me. lol, I AM the only asian female engineer freshman. I think lol. me love college.